Merry Christmas!

 

December

December is turning into a month of sad memories - holidays coupled with missing people who are no longer here.

This month is the anniversary of my aunt's and my father's passings and that of my ex, my late mother's birthday, the anniversary of my mother-in-law's funeral, and the anniversary of an unfortunate injury I sustained at work.

But those are all in the distant past and time has dulled the pain. Right now, the most raw of all is remembering last Christmas with Sean and how it was my last one with him. 

Sean started showing symptoms that he wasn't feeling well a few days after Christmas. Several vet visits later we knew something was seriously wrong. Sean had cancer and it had already spread and was inoperable. He passed on January 12, just a little over 2 weeks later. He was only 10 years old. Gone too soon.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I still miss him so much. Can't wait to see you again, sweet boy. Hug Daddy for me.

♥

Napping

Riley napping in a sun puddle in the kitchen window.

I love how the light shines through his ear.

So sweet

The sun was in Riley's eyes. I closed the shutters for him.

Enjoy your nap, sweet boy.

 

Riley The Box King

 

Sean's prayer flags

 

Many years ago we were blessed to have a vet who came to our home for all visits that didn't require a special procedure/equipment or surgery. One of the things he did for us was provide in-home euthanasia. This made this sorrowful process easier on our furbaby and easier on us, too.

One of the things that Dr. Tom did before he left after our baby had passed was leave us with Tibetan prayer flags made especially for pets. 

Prayer flags are part of Tibetan Buddhist religious practices. They are used to spread goodwill and compassion throughout the universe. The prayers on traditional Tibetan prayer flags center on supplications, good wishes, and desires for peace. These texts, prayers, and symbols are considered to become a permanent part of the universe as they fade.

The flags that Dr. Tom gave us contained the little prayer 

"You have gone ahead
And nothing is the same
Leaving paw prints on my heart
That will always remain"

 

Dr. Tom has retired and moved away and I had forgotten about his practice after Sean passed. But I remembered last week and was able to find a person on Etsy who sells them. The flags arrived a couple of days ago and they hang on our deck as a tribute to my Seanie.

 

I still miss my sweet boy and this small gesture helps ease the hurt that my heart still feels.

Namaste.

Morning visitors